Of many things I claim knowledge of…
Of anything I believe to know…
A lot sits uneasy with me…

Days to weeks, months to years, experiences are unavoidable.
Pleasurable, distasteful, undesired, misunderstood, enjoyed, grieved upon, accomplished, undone…
What pushes a person to open their eyes from sleep?
To leave their bed, their house, prepped for the world?
In my opinion, dreams are constructed by that which is unfulfilled.
Unhappy with work, school, friends, family, life…
To many though, what they dream remains a repressed desire in their subconscious.
As I've been made aware of from many great psychologists, this is necessary…
Though for myself, it leads me to ask why.
Why leave it as something to desire, and will only desire.
Why not fulfill what you want and aim for something more.
The very progression humans lay claim to is derived from greater expectations of oneself.
Though
as each day passes my realizations play part to a stronger foundation
of the belief that I am not happy with where I sit in life.
I say this not as a personal revelation, but as a floor accommodated by common ground.
I know so many can relate, even if they are not aware of it.
It's beyond rare to be born into something you're 100% content with.
In my opinion, it's just absurd.
Things need taken to heed, dwelled upon, lusted after…
It's not selfish to want what something someone else has…
It's selfish to wish to be just as they are.
It's serves no point to fulfill the exact same purpose in life as another.
I repeat so many things in my head…
I stare down the drive in life I see in people each day.
Faces pushing for goals and the path they see best fit.
Day to day, I appreciate hardships…
Nothing is drawn out, made available with guidelines, or even a boundary.
It helps more than you think to feel confident enough to say "this is the way I look at things"
Spit it out, worst thing that could happen would be that you're corrected, or informed…
Sure, you'll have someone to contend with, always.
But that's what everyone needs, challenge, obstacles, character…
Keep yourself wanting more.
I never want to be happy.
I never want to be "set"
I never want satisfaction.
Everything can take some improvement, even if on the smallest scale.
Be willing to trudge, be willing to push, be willing to climb.
Things won't always be so far away.
Things won't always be so tall.
Keep your best accomplishment second to your greatest desire.

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